Time….it means something different to everyone. I need more time, I don’t have time, I wish I had time, where has the time gone? Tonight as I had time to myself, it really dawned on me. Time is moving forward, minute by minute, hour by hour, whether I like it or not. All the moments of “time for bed, time for school, time to turn off the computer, time to do your homework, time to feed the dog etc...it turns our world into one giant clock.
There was a time that I thought my world would never be “normal” again. But here I am, living my life, my new “normal”. All in good time, they said. Time heals all wounds they would say. And they were right.
Writing this post got me thinking back, remembering all the times when the kids were little and I just wanted a hot shower, a hot cup of tea, to finish a meal. Now I have time for that. The kids are growing much too fast and those “luxuries” are now possible. My dinner table is full of actual conversation and as quickly as they come to the table for dinner, they are gone again. “No time mom, gotta get to dance” “Sorry mom, hockey starts at 10”
I started to think about all the times I took my littles into my arms and wiped their tears because a barbie head popped off, or a lego man got stuck in the drain again. I still wipe tears, but now it’s for a young woman who is a good 5 inches taller than me and the tears are about a boy who she thought liked her and didn’t. And even though I am still needed to wipe the tears of a boy whose lego men still get stuck in the drain again, time has turned him into a self sufficient little man.
There was a time when being alone in the bathroom was impossible. But today I glanced at the bathroom door wishing for a minute that I saw chubby little fingers under the door waving at me and a little voice asking me why I was taking so long?
One of my favourite quotes is from Steve Jobs : “Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition.”
Never have truer words been spoken.
I will leave you with one of my favourite songs that my grandpa used to sing to me...and I absolutely wish I was given more time with him.
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